Bear events always leave me feeling fat, ugly, and totally lacking in any social skills whatsoever.

Why do I even go out to the bar? All that happens is no one talks to me, and I leave feeling fat and ugly.

I totally dyed my hair red. well, kinda auburn. pics when I get them....

Depression is, no matter how many hot men that make out with me at the bar, leaving alone and obsessing about the ones that wouldn't.

No one will ever love me and I will die alone.

Not true. But it feels like it. That's one of the many reasons why the government thinks I'm depressed enough to be considered disabled.

Fuck, it sucks.

I'm reading this VD meme that's going around... all these people in couples that moved in together less than three months after meeting... it confuses me. I'm jealous a little bit, though. I fall fast for guys and it usually scares them off. so I've learned over the years to take things really slow. I wonder what would have happened if one of the guys I fell for in the past had fallen back for me... But that never happened, so it's pointless to wonder "what if"...

Anyways, I'll stop rambling.

So, I came down with salmonella poisoning... Went to the ER today, all they could do was give me IV fluids and a prescription for antibiotics I can't afford. Yay.

I finally have internet access again.

Woot.

Also, the government approved my disability claim.

Double woot.

I am a juror in the case of What Had vs. Happened Was.

Damn you, Facebook. I am not interested in beauty items, hair removal treatments, or the like. Just cause I am a cocksucker does not make me a woman.

1996 Ralph Nader
2000 Al Gore
2004 John Kerry

I've finally helped to choose our next President.

I had a dream that my first boyfriend was dating my father.

What would Freud say?

Why is my musical taste the same as the soundtrack from "Gray's Anatomy"? I hate that show.

I'm worried. About a lot of things.

I just had an hourlong argument about XP expenditures at the LARP I run.

Ungh.

I love the Olympics. *LOVE* them.

But they are in China. A country which kills its own people, encourages a system where companies put poison in products, and is slowly ruining the planet's environment.

I can't watch them, or consume products that are "official Olympic". I love the Olympics. Really I do.

Why isn't America boycotting them? Why are people watching them, despite China?

Holy crap, there's another musical Wainwright.

Say something nice about me, so the voices in my head have a counterpoint.

What I wouldn't give for a massive cerebral hemmhorage.

Why have I not discovered Imogen Heap before now?

Seriously. What rock have I been hiding under?